to wade through the weeds

aspiration... lately, i came to understand, can be three fold in its cause and effect.

it's a necessity, when it comes to career n stuff. you look forward towards doing something not just for the sake of liking it, but needing it. often it gives rise to a do or die situation. u fight for a cause... a cause as severe as to defend the existence and well being of urself and ur loved ones.
now THAT is mostly the case. often people dont have the luxury to chase what they fancy. so, they tend to fit into the grind by fancying their survival itself. this, though a passive form of aspiration, is perhaps the most widespread. and the only CHOICE one exercises, is to the extent of chosing this profession over that. but whatever it may be, at the end of the day, it's the money that does all the talking, not the mind.

the other case of ambition, which fits more rosily with the heart-throbbing semantics of the word, is gratification of senses. you DO what you LIKE... and you LIKE what you DO. you make a choice, with ur heart placed over head. you are not bogged down by responsibilities and necessities, and you give in what the youth prefers to call PASSION.
but, this form of aspiration isnt as indisciplined as i just made it look like. it doesnt have to be moody, and impulsive. it is very much meditated, sincere and effective. much like the necessity version of aspiration, this one too demands hard work and tenacity to make the dreams come true. the only difference is, here you have a DREAM to make come true, not just a COMMAND to follow. just because your work isnt tied up by ur mundane responsibilities, doesnt mean you can cocktail with it. this kind of aspiration is rare, but when executed, has been known to deliver best results round the globe.

the third type... is not really an aspiration,
but is counter-aspiration...
also known as failure.
its a lesson to be learnt. this form of aspiration is not progressive, like the previous two kinds, its corrective. it doesnt apparently output anything, but lays the foundation for future outputs. its a form of preparation. a FEEDBACK, as one of my friends once put it, that tells you what NOT to do... that tells you that your choice perhaps wasnt right. or may be, you werent devoted enuff to what u chose.
or tells you to take another path to reach your goal. tells you to make your own way, when u fail to walk thru the BEATEN PATH (in the words of that friend).
i guess, thats where i stand now. the metalled road is not for me. the smooth ride is not for me.
perhaps i couldnt see my path, cause it isnt laid yet. i gotta make my own way.

i got to wade thru the weeds.